Field Of Paper Flowers

nihil_x @ 2009-02-10T22:13:00

2009-02-10T22:15:54Z

"I just want to let you know...
...my mind refuses to let you go..."

this isn't goodbye

2008-10-29T22:41:28Z

and you're gone...
I miss you...miss you so bad...
thank you for everything... I just wish we could have a little more time so I could present to you all the things I told you I would do...
It could have been different...

<3

R.I.P.

howdy?! howdy?!

2008-03-20T03:00:08Z

In a period of complete stress I've re-found an old passion of mine... the only thing that can make me relax lately... drawing...
I guess I'm more obcessed with pencils and papers than ever before... and it feels good.

OMG! I'M POSTING IN LJ AGAIN!!! NO WAYYYY!!!!

AND CARRYYYYYYY OOOOOOONN...

2007-07-27T22:40:59Z

I'M HAPPY! =D
So basicaly I helped my brother building a website, made a logo and helped in the part of the advertisement for a project of a friend of my brother... kind of a residential for old people. I spent hours on it!... But I guess the final result was really rewarding!... Or at least is being rewarding! =)
Some days ago, my brother's friend even brought one of the residential's cars to show me the logotype that was painted on it... the one I made! =D It's such a nice feeling! Eheh

Anyway... appart from that... today was a crazy day... me and Rosário went for a walk after going to the driving school... and it was purely insane. LOL And we didn't even drink Coca-Cola. WE EVEN STARTED "SINGING" "MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE"'S SONGS FOR GOD'S SAKE!!! ROTFL
Oh... and we met Captain Jack Sparrow, Shrek, Harry Potter, Voldemort... xD lolol And they even asked to take photos with us... we're like so cool, hey?! ROTFL

Shot at 2007-07-27
Yes... we are part of the third Shrek movie.
I'm the Pinnocchio in this one! xD

Shot at 2007-07-27
Don't take the orange shades seriously, please! LOL

ignore me... I'm paranoid

2007-07-16T00:35:01Z

And I can't stop thinking about you... your smile... that one minute... something that surely wasn't supposed to mean nothing at all... but I'm feeling weird since then... and I know I cannot... 'cause this is just wrong... this is something I could never think of before...
I'm feeling weird... really weird... and I don't want to...
I just hope I'm not falling again...

Caffeine <3

2007-07-05T08:23:51Z

OMG!!! I'M HYPER!!! AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY!11!!"$!1!$!41211one1!$!(%two1$!"%
So basicaly I stayed up all night and now I'm drowning myself in coffee... WOWZAH!!!
At least it was a productive night... I'm almost finishing my drawing!!! YAAAYYYY!!!!
I'm getting even more and more fascinated by hi5... and I bloody hate it! =O
I'm not making any sense at all... am I?!
Btw... check this and this if you want. I warn you that I won't be responsible for any kind of psychological damages!!!
Whatever... going back to my cup of coffee (it looks more like a pool)!
Take care! xx

Nanika atta?!

2007-07-04T22:30:40Z

Apparently that means "What's up?!"
Oh boy... I want to learn japanese now! HAHA.

Anyway... yesterday night me and my friend Hugo spent some hours listening to some Utada Hikaru's songs... I liked a few I already knew from games like Kingdom Hearts... she has a really wonderful voice...
Here's a video I loved:

It looks so anime! <3

Rambling...

2007-07-01T02:54:35Z

So it's almost 4am and I'm still awake... and I'm feeling so fkn sleepy but still I don't feel like going to bed! haha

I've been watching "From Hell" with Diana (a friend of mine) until more or less 30 minutes ago... brilliant movie! Is Johnny Depp a fkn (HOT HOT HOT) GENIUS or what?! As Diana would say "Fantástico! Fantástico!"! LOL

So anyway... 6 more days until I get to know if I passed the exam... I hope so... then I'll get back to my driving lessons (YAAAAYYYY)... and basicaly that is my plan for the summer... for now!

My brother is moving to a new house with his girlfriend this month... argh... this feels so weird... it's all happening so suddenly... and I guess I should be happy for him... but I can't help but feeling sad and empty knowing he's going to leave...

Well... it's time for me to think about going to bed and try to sleep...
Hhhmmmm... I guess the movie and all this "bla bla bla I want absynth!" talk with Diana... and then a deep and intelligent conversation about getting drunk and sharing alcohol related stories with Jimba is making me feel thirsty...
OK... I SHALL GO TO SLEEP... LIKE... RIGHT NOW!

Take care,
xx

NOBODY MOVE!!! I dropped me brain.

2007-06-07T01:46:10Z

I've just came back from cinema. Finally, I went with my brother to watch the movie I've been waiting for during the last 2, 3 months... Pirates Of The Caribbean: At The World's End.
OMG!!! Really!... One of the best movies I've ever seen! It's so much better than the second one... however... I still don't know if I prefer the first or this last one.
The ingredients were all there once again: the cast that was there for the three movies... the awesome humour... the war scenes (the final battle is A-M-A-Z-I-N-G)... oh and the love stories in it are great (Will/Elizabeth and Davy Jones/Calypso)!
And of course... Johnny Depp at his best... undoubtedly! <3
The end seemed like it's open for something new... well maybe another movie?! That would be awesome!!!

But unfortunately life ain't only fun... and so... I have to go back to study for my exam as I didn't do anything in the last afternoon! ARGH!!!
I guess I'll only go to bed in the morning... again... =\
Oh... but whatever... ME'S HAPPY!!! =D

New Layout

2007-05-27T18:01:16Z

Hell... YEAH!!! Finally, I managed to MAKE MY OWN LAYOUT!!! (Well... kind of...) LOLOL
After listening to "Sweet Dreams" (Marilyn Manson's version) for the 99912354235th time in 24h... I finally got some inspiration.
I think it looks kinda... decent?! Maybe... maybe not.. whatever...
Gotta work on some new avas as well...

Oh and btw...

Green Day - Working Class Hero (Live @ American Idol)

First you must learn how to smile as you kill...

2007-05-27T04:45:51Z

I NEED SUGAR!!!
And this must be the most senseless post ever made in LJ.

Oh... and btw...I hate you! =D

Seriously PISSED OFF!!!

2007-05-15T01:14:36Z

Really... I'm tired of having my work underrated for some stupid dumbasses... DAMN TIRED!!!

It's not like I'm being big-headed or something... but just try to get my point: you work for hours and hours really hardly on a project you love and to which you dedicate all your time trying to make every single detail look perfect... I showed it to some ppl and all I've got was nice comments about it... then some cunt who should evaluate it properly... doesn't even see 1/10000000 of the work ('cause he's like so fkn worried about going out as soon as he can and get the major piss of his life in a bar somewhere) and says something like: "IT COULD BE SO MUCH BETTER! I don't know how I should evaluate it really..."!...
LIKE... SORRY... WHAT?!

Well... HELLOOOO?!... OF COURSE YOU DON'T!!! HAVE YOU EVEN LOOKED AT IT?!
Really... I'd be TOTALLY surprised if he told me now what was the main subject of it...
HE DIDN'T EVEN LOOK AT IT AND HE HAD THE GUTS TO TELL ME THAT SHIT?! CAN YOU BELIEVE THIS?!
LIKE... WHAT THE FUCK?!
HE DIDN'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO OPEN THE FKN COMPUTER PROGRAM FOR GOD'S SAKE!!!

One of the biggest things I've ever done and some fkn cunt tells me he doesn't know how he should evaluate it?!
WELL... EVALUATE THIS, SIR!!! .|.

I'M SICK... I'M TIRED OF BEING INJUSTICED FOR SHIT LIKE THAT!!!
AAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

Really... I was having such a wonderful day and then some fkn bastards just had to completely ruin it!!!
AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Eeeerrr... Hi!

2007-05-05T16:36:29Z

I haven't post in here for so long!...
No need to say that you all miss me to death, hey?! ROTFL Yeah, right!...

So... I don't even have any idea why I'm posting now... just because I felt like typing something... lol

I have been really busy the last few days... studies, studies and more studies... BORING!!!
I really can't wait until this year is over and I hope everything goes well as I want to!

I also have been working on some new photos and wallpapers... you can see them in my DeviantArt page.

Anyway, last tuesday I went to visit my grandparents... I've missed my hometown... it's so different from the city I live in... like... THERE'S NO SEA IN HERE!!! *cries* So it was more like a rainy day by the beach... loved it!!!

Well... I really don't have much more to say... and still have a lot to do... so...

Bye Bye!!!

xx

PS: Btw... here's the videoclip of a song I really like...

30 Seconds To Mars - Capricorn

YAAAYYYY

2007-04-12T02:42:30Z

LOVE IT!!!!!! LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!! LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOVE THE SONG AND LOVE THE VIDEOCLIP!!! <3

Lacuna Coil - Within Me

EDITED: Now the video is working! =D

Dominic Howard_Wallpaper

2007-04-09T04:16:12Z

Just posting something I've just made...

I haven't made wallpapers for a long long time (I lost a lot of my technique! =\)... but since I am extremely bored and I need to refresh my mind and also as I don't feel like doing anything else or going to sleep I decided to search for some Dominic Howard pictures and have a go on Photoshop.

(Thank God, Rosário doesn't come to LJ, otherwise I would be called "Obcessed Freak" once again! =| LOL)

Comments would be appreciated!
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Brushes:
Sanami276
kakiii
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PS: EASTER BUNNY IS GAY!!! *random*

Oh... btw... have you already seen Evanescence new videoclip?!
No?! Well... here it is...
ENJOY!!!

Evanescence - Sweet Sacrifice

ME LIKES!!!... Really!!! =D
That's one of the few songs in their new album I really like!

...

2007-04-08T02:31:16Z

I want to go back in time so badly... I really do... like... years and years ago...

SO FKN AMUSED <3

2007-03-17T03:03:39Z

So... today... ahem... yesterday... was the exclusive of Muse new video: INVINCIBLE!

I must confess... the song is not really one of my favourites... but man... THE VIDEO IS AWESOME!!! LOL
I was thinking it would be something like a love story... or something like Green Day's video WMUWSE... and then what do I see?! PLAYMOBILE MEN RIDING A CAROUSEL THROUGHOUT THE WORLD HISTORY!!! <3

AWESOME!!! I have no words to describe how much I love this video... the concept, the cenario... EVERYTHING about it is so easy to love! =D
Pure geniality... one of the most original videos I've ever seen!
Muse surelly know how to surprise their fans! <3

Ok... I'm hyper!... So I'll just shut my mouth and post the video in here for you to take a look. =D

Kingdom Of Doom

2007-02-19T04:39:48Z

I'm so mad at you for doing what you've done... Never thought you could do something like this... Really... I'm so disappointed... If at least you have noticed you hurted someone you love... I'm not angry 'cause of me... I'm angry 'cause of what you've done to her...

Anyway...

Nostalgy is striking me again... and that was when I reminded of Blur... a british band I used to love when I was a little girl... and today I became addicted to a song of Damon Albarn's new band, The Good The Bad & The Queen. I never was much into Gorillaz... but man... this new band of his with Paul Simonon ("The Clash"'s bassist) sounds so cool... so different!... Ah!... Guess the passion is back!... Damon is such a brilliant musician... <3

I'll let here the videoclip of "Kingdom Of Doom" in case you're interested... I'm completely in love with it! vvv

Oh... and also a live version. vvv

Gotta love that man!

"Friday night
In the kingdom of doom
Ravens fly
Across the moon"

(The Good The Bad & The Queen - Kingdom Of Doom)
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"ps: o coelho tb te ama" (by: MAU)
THOSE WORDS WILL TURN INTO WORLD HISTORY!!!
Salu... BEWARE... THE BLUE BUNNY IS OUT THERE!!! =X

I need a ooh la la la la la...

2007-02-07T17:22:28Z

Hellooooo!!!
Just thought it would be nice to share with you some graphics I've made during some of the many demential moments I use to have while working with Adobe Photoshop...
Today I'll post only Muse related graphics. Like these...

Click on the link below to see more of my artwork.

Avatars

Signature

Wallpapers

DON'T FORGET TO CREDIT IF YOU USE ANY OF MY GRAPHICS!!!... OR I'LL CHASE YOU IN YOUR NIGHTMARES!!! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!! =X Oh... and hotlink is NOT ALOWED!!!

Comments would be very appreciated!!! =)

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Credits:

Brushes:
Miss M
angelic-trust
The Fifth Muse Brush Gallery
latexandleather

Textures:
Seiyax
Textura - Vered
Hybrid Genesis

Fonts:
Dafont

I'm medicated... how are you?

2007-01-22T04:11:40Z

So... I've just felt the need to type something in here... don't really know what...

I've been quite... hyper and down at the same time... these last days...
Maybe it's 'cause I'm going through so many changes in my life lately... I don't even know how do I feel anymore... I'm going to miss him... I really will...
Ah... how I wish I could run away and leave everything behind... forget everyone and everything... but I can't... I'm stuck into everyone and into everything in this place...

Oh... anyway...

Can't wait for September to come... after all the hardwork I'm going to have... I hope I can achieve my main goal this year... going to uni... let's see how it's going to be!... 'Cause I'm tired of this life...

And yeah... I also hope to get my driver's license before summer... eheh... then NOTHING CAN STOP ME!!! YEAH!!!

So... basically... let's see if this year is what I'd love to call "The Perfect Year"...
2006 was a very confusing year... I had really bad moments (which I prefer not to mention)... and some AWESOME moments, as for example, the day I went to the MUSE gig!!! =D Really... I think I'll never forget that day!!!

OMG... MUSE ON MTV!!! KNIGHTS OF CYDONIA!!! OK... I'LL BE BACK IN 5 MINUTES!!!

*Stares at the tv*

...

*Back*

Hmmmm... Dominic!!!... <3

Oh, no!!!... Now Salu is killing me with nasty pics on msn!!!... lmao... No, no!!!... It's not what you're thinking!!!... It's some Britney, Jessica Simpson and AFI related pics!!!... EWWWW!!!... I think I'm going to have nightmares now!!! lmao

Well... I think I'm going to bed now... it's already 4.20am... and tomorrow is going to be a busy day... but before I'll have to listen to a song I'm addicted at the moment: "Follow The Cops Back Home" by Placebo.

Oh... and I'm hearing such a beautiful sound now... the sound of the raindrops falling on my window... it's raining... those lovely "grey sky days" came back... LOVE THEM!!!

Well... talk to you later!!! xxx

"The call to arms was never true,
I'm medicated... how are you?
Let's take a dive swim right through,
Sophisticated point of view..."

(Placebo - Follow The Cops Back Home)

Blind

2007-01-13T02:10:47Z

If I could tear you from the ceiling
And guarantee source divine
Rid you of possessions fleeting
Remain your funny valentine

Don’t go and leave me
And please don’t drive me blind
Don’t go and leave me
And please don't drive me blind

If I could tear you from the ceiling
I know the best have tried
I'd fill your every breath with meaning
And find the place we both could hide

Don’t go and leave me
And please don’t drive me blind
Don’t go and leave me
And please don't drive me blind

(...)

If I could tear you from the ceiling
I’d freeze us both in time
And find a brand new way of seeing
Your eyes forever glued to mine.

Don’t go and leave me
And please don’t drive me blind
Don’t go and leave me
And please don’t drive me blind
Please don’t drive me blind
Please don’t drive me blind
Please don’t drive me blind
Please don’t drive me blind

(...)

Stuck In A Moment

2007-01-10T18:50:38Z

I'm not afraid
Of anything in this world
There's nothing you can throw at me
That I haven't already heard
I'm just trynna' find
A decent melody
A song that I can sing
In my own company

(...)

~~You~~ (I)'ve got stuck in a moment
And now ~~you~~ (I) can't get out of it
Don't say that later will be better
Now ~~you're~~ (I'm) stuck in a moment
And ~~you~~ (I) can't get out of it

(...)
The colors that you bring
The nights you filled with fireworks
(...)
I am still enchanted
By the light you brought to me
I listen through your ears
Through your eyes I can see

(...)

~~You~~ (I)'ve got stuck in a moment
And now ~~you~~ (I) can't get out of it
Don't say that later will be better
Now ~~you're~~ (I'm) stuck in a moment
And ~~you~~ (I) can't get out of it

I was unconscious, half asleep
The water is warm 'til you discover how deep
I wasn't jumping, for me it was a fall
It's a long way down to nothing at all

~~You~~ (I)'ve got stuck in a moment
And now ~~you~~ (I) can't get out of it
Don't say that later will be better
Now ~~you're~~ (I'm) stuck in a moment
And ~~you~~ (I) can't get out of it

And if the night runs over
And if the day won't last
And if ~~your~~ (my) way should falter
Along this stony pass

It's (not) just a moment
This time will (not) pass

MUSE Gig_Pics

2006-11-26T01:09:17Z

November, 26th... it's been a month since the greatest gig in the world... and I know I promised I'd post some pics and videos I took... so for now click on the link below to see the pics!!!

So... here's a resume of that HUGE day!!!...

::On the train to Entrecampos::

HYPER!!! HYPER!!! HYPER!!!

Sandra (thinking): Stop... stop with that camera or I'll punch your face!!!

Hugo trying to stay awake... after a long sleepless night...

Me and my silly face... my normal look!!! lmao

::Arriving at Campo Pequeno::

YAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!

Hugo and Sandra and... BEAT THE STREET

MUSE BUSES!!! <3 THE YELLOW ONE!!!

THE TICKET!!! Yeah... I accidentaly put my finger on "MUSE"!!!... Such a genius!!!...

Hugo: Di, strike an "Emo pose"!!!
Here's the result...

Sad... I know...

::A few hours later... inside the building::

ANXIETY KILLING US!!!

Sandra: APOSENTO DA MOITA!!!

Hugo: Só cá vim ver os toiros!!! A TOIRADA!!!

Analysing the security!!! Eheh...

(The following gig pics are a "little" too dark!!!... Sorry about the quality... the camera I used wasn't that good! =\ Thanks to Hugo for being so tall and such an amazing photographer for those two hours!!! =P)

::Poet in Process... the Pre-Act::
NICE!!!

And then...
::SUPERMASSIVE HYSTERIA!!!::

THE PURE BLISS!!!

::After the show::

COME OUTSIDE, PLEAAAASEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!

::The Leaving::

Best Day Of My Life

2006-10-28T14:56:07Z

Two days ago aka 26/10/2006... in Campo Pequeno, Lisboa, Portugal... I've just seen THE MOST AMAZING thing I've ever seen IN MY WHOLE LIFE!!!!!!!! YEAH, THE SUPERMASSIVELLY EXQUISITELLY FANTASTICALLY AAAWWWEEESSSOOOMMMEEEEEE MUSE GIG!!!!!!!!

OMFGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!! Two days have passed and I'm still so fkn hyper... I still can't believe I was there... and I can't believe how amazing it was... THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE!!! It was like... SURREAL!!! SOBERB!!!

At 9pm the pre-act band appeared... Poet In Process!... They surprised me!!!... I had no clue what they were about... only knew that they were a spanish band and I had heard some songs in their myspace... but wasn't properly thinking it would be any good... but well... actually... it was... I really enjoyed seeing their performance on stage!

And then Muse finally came on stage...
It was a magic moment... I couldn't believe that they were in there... right in front of us!
They started with "Take A Bow"... that was HUGE!!!

It was almost UNBELIEVABLE!!!

Those guys are MUSIC GODS!!! AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME AWESOMEEEEEEE!!!!!!!

The lightning effects, the set... everything was just PERFECT!!!

We managed to get ourselves some spots right in the front where we stayed most of the time... until the giant balloons came across the crowd and we were pushed back some places behind... more or less to the 4th row... THE MOSHPIT WAS COMPLETELY INSANE... BUT WE SURVIVED!!! LOL

YES, WE HAD BALLOONS!!! GIANT BALLOONS!!! Sandra asked for it some hours before the gig... I think Matt heard her and made the staff to get some balloons to the show!!! LOL

Matt spoke portuguese!!! I was shocked when he introduced Starlight: "A próxima música chama-se Starlight!" which means "The next song is called Starlight!"!!! He speaks portuguese so much better than Nelly Furtado!!!
And when he was singing Bliss there was this part where he actually sang "Give me all the PILLS and JOINTS in your mind" instead of "Give me all the PEACE and JOY in your mind"!!! That was funny!!! lol

Chris and his banging head!!! LMAO It made me laugh when they played "Hysteria"... it looked like his head was about to jump out of his body!!! LOL

And there was a spaceship!!! LOL AND SURPRISINGLY IT WAS NOT MATT WHO WAS IN IT... IT WAS DOM!!!!!!!!!!!... I couldn't find him at the begining of the show 'cause he was inside that thing... and I was like "WTF?! WHERE IS DOMINIC?!"!... But then it opened up... and... THERE HE WAS!!! Hhhhhhhmmmmmm... He was looking more gorgeous than ever!!! We caught the guy staring at our zone a few times... even when we were pushed back some places behind by the mad crowd... maybe he has a thing for cameras!!!... LMAO Oh, Dommy, Dommy, Dommy... and his weirdly sexy pants!!!... <3

There was also Morgan and his "jukebox"! LOL

They played my favourite songs: Stockholm Syndrome and Citizen Erased... unfortunatelly they didn't play Feeling Good... but oh whatever... they played Citizen Erased instead and it was AWESOME!!! We heard them playing that song before the show while they were doing the soundcheck... and we were like "OMFG!!! THEY ARE GOING TO PLAY CITIZEN ERASED!!!"! LOL

By midnight the show was over... and we were completely ASTONISHED!!!

I would like to describe it better... but I'm still completely speechless... I knew it was going to be awesome... but not THIS AWESOME... can't describe it!!!

MATT BELLAMY + DOMINIC HOWARD + CHRIS WOLSTENHOLME = SUPERMASSIVE ROCK GODS

The setlist was excellent!!! Here it is:

1.Take A Bow
2.Hysteria
3.Map Of The Problematique
4.Butterflies & Hurricanes
5.New Born
6.City Of Delusion
7.Plug In Baby
8.Forced In
9.Bliss
10.Apocalypse Please
11.Hoodoo
12.Invincible
13.Supermassive Black Hole
14.Starlight
15.Time Is Running Out
16.Stockholm Syndrome
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17.Citizen Erased
18.Muscle Museum
19.Knights Of Cydonia

The BEST 2 hours of my life!!!

I've just found a video of the first music they played in the gig... this video is not mine... but here it is...

"'Cause there's no one like you in the Universe"
(Muse - Invincible)

PS: I'll post some pics we took later... and maybe some videos...

...

2006-09-29T15:17:49Z

Under your spell again
I can't say no to you
Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand
I can't say no to you

Shouldn't have let you torture me so sweetly
Now I can't let go of this dream
I can't breathe but I feel

Good enough
I feel good enough for you

Drink up sweet decadence
I can't say no to you
And I've completely lost myself and I don't mind
I can't say no to you

Shouldn't have let you conquer me completely
Now I can't let go of this dream
Can't believe that I feel

Good enough
I feel good enough for you
Its been such a long time coming, but I feel good

And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall
POUR REAL LIFE DOWN ON ME
'Cause I can't hold on to anything this good
Enough
Am I good enough
For you to love me too?

So take care what you ask of me
'Cause I can't say no

(Evanescence - Good Enough)